To Be Admired Lyrics

I wasn't feeling good today

And I was sitting in my car, and I thought man I need-a

I need to direct this

this feeling this emotion that I never have

I need to direct it at something positive

Whipping in my car a little drunk, a little wired

I'm all alone in this life, I'm undesired

Might fuck some bitch, to try ta make my life lil brighter

My only goal tonight, to truly think that I'm admired

I feel so empty, I feel left out, I feel alone

Last time it happened, I'm crying calling on yo phone

I'm Lacking purpose, a warrior king, without a throne

I'm fucking trying, this shit tough, I'm on my own

I miss my family, I miss my brothas, miss my bros

I miss my cousins, I miss my lovas, miss my hoes

I'm lacking purpose, I miss my dreams, I miss my goals

I'm fucking trying, this shit hard, I'm on my own

I'm a man I take whatever chance that I can get

I barely sleep, I've been up, I been feeling sick

I got promoted, just anotha name that's on a list

Earning all my stripes, but it ain't feeling like I dreamed it did

I dream of death, I dream of pain, of how I saw ya

I think of Ant, I think of Missy, think of Alter

J-V practice, birds and bees, and pouring shots-a

Jack and henny, somehow I wish that I could talk ta

Grumpyelder to ask you for some fucking wisdom

See I'm too young to understand this fucked up life I'm living

I'm just a cog in a machine they never see my vision

I need someone that I can trust to give some supervision

I need a mentor, I need a man that I look up to

I need a person gonna have my back an always come through

Or a wife that I could love, know that I could trust you

To share the dream, to share the goal, it's what we must do

I want too much, it's out of reach, all because you

Think it's fun, like all I want to do is fuck you

I'll spite the world, I'll show you what this fucking gun do

My last goodbye, I hope you know I'll always love you

I feel so empty, I feel left out, I feel alone

Last time happened, I'm crying calling on yo phone

I'm Lacking purpose, a warrior king, without a throne

I'm fucking crying, this shit tough, I'm on my own

I miss my family, I miss my brothas, miss my bros

I miss my cousins, I miss my lovas, miss my hoes

I'm lacking purpose, I miss my dreams, I miss my goals

I'm fucking trying, this shit hard, I'm on my own

I feel so empty, I feel left out, I feel alone

Last time it happened, I'm crying calling on yo phone

I'm Lacking purpose, a warrior king, without a throne

I'm fucking trying, this shit tough, I'm on my own

I miss my family, I miss my brothas, miss my bros

I miss my cousins, I miss my lovas, miss my hoes

I'm lacking purpose, I miss my dreams, I miss my goals

I'm fucking trying, this shit hard, I'm on my own