Unclear Lyrics

It's unclear how I got to this state

Some blame daddy issues, some fate

But I don't care to debate

Anymore

Either way I'm lying here, on the floor

Crying out, please take me Lord 

Feeling like I've been here before

But I don't wanna die (I don't wanna die)

This just isn't much of a life (No, no, I don't wanna die)

I don't know why I do this

Don't know why I put me through this (Don't know why I)

You abused me, gave me bruises 

But I still stay

I chose this

I think that I, need a minute 

Gotta go, come back in it

Traumatized and I get it

My triggers have no limit

Ooo, I can't think straight when you

Abuse me like you do (Why did you say that?)

Hope you got some help for all your issues 

I can't sleep

Need to drown you out (Drown you out)

The upside is that you're gone now (The upside)

And I won't ever let you back in this house (You're never coming back)

I burned it down (down)

'Cause I don't wanna die (I don't wanna die, swear I wanna stay alive)

This just isn't much of a life

I choose me this time (I choose me)

I choose me

I choose me

I choose me, this time

This time, this time, this time, this time

It's unclear how I got to this state