When the Storm Hits Lyrics

Living on the outside (yeah, yeah) makes them

A very complex little

Beast; it's crystal clear, the

Deterioration had greatly increased

My life could be much better, but my pride gets in the way

My mind speaks through letters, I write what I can't say

Ice comes in sheets with death, cause my mic is how I lay

What I see in my breath, but fuck, I've made mistakes

Goin' back to Nerves, I wondered if I'd ever make it

My flow was trash, but words? With them, I'm always naked

All I know is rap, my hurt, I wish I would have taken

The steps to cope with that, or learned just to be patient

I'm bad at waitin', have a talent for getting what I want

Charismatic, maybe, distracted, forgetting what I want

On wax, I placed it, no balance in forgiving what once was

And as I'm aging, I've found my life is written in Mom's blood

Generational trauma doesn't make me a monster

And I hate that I brought all this hatred upon Mom

But to say it's your fault like Satan had spawned ya'

Those words rang hollow, but those'll still cost us

(When the Storm Hits) Rayn will start to drop

(When the Storm Hits) Validation hits the spot

(When the Storm Hits) My brain gets lost in fog

(When the Storm Hits) I'm aimless, got no job

(When the Storm Hits) I'm dangerous, I feel lost

(When the Storm Hits) My anger just dissolves

(When the Storm Hits) My days, they all just wash

(When the Storm Hits) I'm nameless, just a drop

When the Storm Hits, and I look at what I've done

I wonder if I truly ever deserve my mother's love

I'm feelin' torn an', my brother holds me up

Which is fuckin' crazy, 'cause I've dissed him more than once

I feel like I'm alone and like no one understands me

That's why I write these poems, they're letters to my family

I chose to pilot boats but cannot get off this damn sea

I don't wanna open up, but I cannot stop this planning

Depression and doubt creep in, I was manic when I planned this

So much for Clout-freakin'-ten, I can't fit in that jammin'

And I'm down to make amends with my family but I can't yet

'Cause with sounds, they're breakin' in, my damage on every damn track

And that's the cause of one of the biggest problems that I've faced

Feeling like I'm lost in a fog of all this shame

Spotlight in the dark, let it all just find its place

So I write this song, it's not solved just out the way

(When the Storm Hits) Rayn will start to drop

(When the Storm Hits) Validation hits the spot

(When the Storm Hits) My brain gets lost in fog

(When the Storm Hits) I'm aimless, got no job

(When the Storm Hits) I'm dangerous, I feel lost

(When the Storm Hits) My anger just dissolves

(When the Storm Hits) My days, they all just wash

(When the Storm Hits) I'm nameless, just a drop

See, because I come from survivors of the Holocaust

Great-grandparents were broken, feeling like it all was lost

I think my grandma's a good person, but what she had was not a lot

So when my mom was like thirteen, my grandmother was not involved

I guess that's why my mom controlled every aspect of my life

Desperate just to have a hold, and grasp, she squeezed me tight

And everything undiagnosed, I know she thinks she's right

Too many times it came to blows, and we couldn't sympathize

And I worry about my sister if she's walking the same path

And my brother, got some nephews, be the opposite of that

Mom, it's not your fault, I get what held you back

Responsibility on all, ball was dropped dealing with your dad

And if you hear this song, know I'm no longer mad

You sipped your alcohol, I was a drop lost in your glass

I forgive you, you're my mom, but we can't walk it back

So when there's clouds and fog, I keep it all on wax

Yeah

I'm sorry

To everyone, I'm sorry

The guard rails

Where on that freezing night, fathers hugged their

Children, set them in the lowering life boats

And leaned out to catch a final glimpse of their loved ones