Letter 2 My Heart Lyrics

Feel like my heart's trying to tell me he can't take it anymore

Broken bottles of Henny, I woke up on the floor

I despise lies and the lies hurt of course

But I think I've realized sometimes the truth hurts more

Number one you was my first crush

We was young and I was dumb my heart was in a rush

I was doing anything to make you laugh or blush

But if your nigga knew, he would try and get me touched

Your nigga was my homie, we would kick it after school

But my main focus was always kicking it with you

Y'all was on and off so I couldn't wait to make my move

Can't go against bro code, but I knew you first, it's cool

I ain't never told him how you would flirt and send me nudes

So when he found out, I guess he couldn't blame you

Lost a friend over your ass, bitch, the blame is on you

Matter of fact, ho, matter of fact, we fucking through

But your ass just kept on coming back, and I ain't complain

I ain't gonna sit here and lie and say I ain't want you the same

Call me toxic all you wanna, but you would've did the same

The way her body looked, it's still encrypted in my brain

When we turned 18, you said we should move out to Cali

The plan sounded valid, convinced my parents I'm ready

You picked a one bedroom for us out in Inglewood

Just to find out you went alone, bitch, it's a single wood

Feel like my heart's trying to tell me he can't take it anymore

Broken bottles of Henny, I woke up on the floor

I despise lies and the lies hurt, of course

But I think I've realized sometimes the truth hurts more

Number two, I think you broke me to worst

Your ass love to fucking argue, it ain't phase me at first

Cause toxic love was fun, the way we fucked made it worth

Sex with you was the best, we satisfied each other's thirst

Till that damn condom had burst

We was stacking bread together we was gon' make this shit work

Nineteen with a baby, it sounded crazy at first

When I finally accepted it, I wasn't prepared for the worst

So that miscarriage hurt

She had a problem with a nic addiction

Abused alcohol too, cause she had no pot to piss in

I thought she stopped when she was pregnant, but she just hid it from me

She ain't like the fact that she killed that baby in her tummy

So she blamed it on me, took out all her problems and her anger on me

I just stood strong, I was in pain, can't you see

So when I left her ass, I guess the blame was on me

I guess the shame was on me, damn

Feel like my heart's tryin' tell me he can't take it anymore

Broken bottles of Henny, I woke up on the floor

I despise lies and the lies hurt, of course

But I think I've realized sometimes the truth hurts more

Number three, you treated me like your number one

Can't apologize enough for the stuff that I done

Think I realized I used you for your body and mind

But I promise you those wasn't my intentions at the time

I was in South Africa for four months, you would visit me there

I was infatuated by you, by your body and stare

You was the first person to show me that you love me and care

But I'm a product of my past and ain't no love exist there

I wasn't used to that, I ain't know how to express it

I was always toxic, feel like you taught me a lesson

I mean you was older, five years to be exact

I think something about your maturity somehow kept me intact

Zulu girl, so our cultures and traditions collide

Knew that if I wanted you, I had to make you my bride

We was three months in, my pops tried arranging our marriage

I was so under pressure when we sat down with your parents

I ain't know how to tell 'em, or tell you I wasn't ready

I was living in the moment, I was trying to go steady

I ain't wanna hurt you or embarrass you front your family

So I just kept my feelings in cause I was raised to be manly

I broke your abstinence, something so holy and pure

Thought I was expressing my love by letting my dick reassure

I was a hurt soul, and you looked like the cure

Before I did all that I had to be clear you were sure

I loved the way you looked at me when I stuck it in deep

You loved it from the back to feel me grip on your cheeks

I loved the way you moaned, the way you struggled to speak

You loved to give me dome and watch me tug on the sheets

I told you that I loved you and I thought I did mean it

But when I flew home that put some distance between it

Honeymoon stage was over and I felt all alone

So I started thinking, soul searching, I was all on my own

I explained the situation to my mama and cried

Told her that the distance made me feel a divide

So I called you on the phone and I told you my side

Broke up with you on the day that's called Valentine's, damn