Looking Back Lyrics

Shrugging deep against the sharpness, of a thin wind from the grey

My stare rests on the granite that spells your name and a dark day

No bottom to your disappointment, no end to your assumptions too

You've made a life long effort to make me better off than you

Does today meet the expectations

You spoke of when I could hear you still

Imagined forward, without hesitation?

But understand: Today is my day too

And I keep looking back

Half a century fills today

Can't refrain from looking back

A dark refrain left somehow on replay

As of late you look through my eyes at the world you couldn't face

And we speak as if embodied in a bright and airy someplace

Still hoping for my high achievements, not knowing if I'll "win the race"

You didn't dare let go of your only child's embrace

A unique discerning brightness in a brittle lonely shell

Your descent your discontentment, silently your heart rebelled

Recent years spent in isolation

You closed the door on tomorrow's pain

And I keep looking back

Half a century fills today

Can't refrain from looking back

A dark refrain left somehow on replay

Your demands on life so extreme

Helping you would always fail so it seemed

I should have done more of the small things that brighten the sea

Of darkness that drowned out the élan vital

And made every day appear futile

Still sticks my attention to every omission although the end isn't final