Thank You Lyrics

I wish that you was here when they would tell me that I'm not shit

I wish that you was here before I lost it

Back when you was just a call away when I was stomping through the projects

Making music, never thought I'd get it popping I just....

I just wish I spent a little more time

Was recording in your kitchen you would help me with my rhymes

Been through so much hell it feel like god ain't on my side

Sometimes when I get high I hit your line

And I know that you ain't there

Shit I hate that you ain't here

Please don't try to tell me life ain't fair

Cause when you left I didn't care

About the problems I would face

Seems like god is testing me on faith

I know that you'd be so proud of Hallie

I'm sorry you ain't get to see her marry

She got herself a house and even had a little family

I know you'd be surprised to hear that Timothy did too

When I look into their children's eyes I think I'm seeing you

And don't worry about mom, you know she strong, she never changed

But I know when she's alone

No one at home, that she's in pain

Last time I came to see you, you ain't even know my name

I've lost a lot of folks, but sense you died, I haven't been the ugh....

I keep re-writing this verse

I speak my thoughts through songs I know it's weird, but it works

I ain't never have no closure with the ones that I've lost

I'd make a phone call to heaven, could give a fuck what it cost

You should see me, I've been following my dreams granny

Shit I did it with no help, shit I don't need any

I'm a bigger fan of Coke when I can mix Henny

Cause when I'm sober, I'll be dead if I let demons get me

And I don't know if my families mad that I don't come around

One phone call away just know I'll hold you down

I've been too busy making music tryna perfect my sound

So now when I feel a way, run to the booth and lay a body down

I've been clinging to this smoke to get some peace

How the fuck could leave me? Now I can't sleep

I talked to god the other day, down on my knees

Like "why did you take her instead of me?"

I got so much more to answer for

Lately I've been waking up so paranoid

Like this gone be the day I finally meet the lord

I hit the floor and beg to god to never let me feel no more

You took the only one that helped without my dads support

I've been tweaking and I know that she would tell me

She told me I shouldn't smoke it isn't healthy

I was like what could you tell me?

I would tell you bout these girls I'm with and how I'm moving stealthy

Last one you knew was Shea, you know the one that worked the deli

But the one that holds me down, her name is Liv

She understands just how I feel

We grew up fast and bought crib

Swear she's my prize, you'd be surprised to hear I'm not late on my bills

And I done eased up on them pills

Don't wear a mask when someone ask me something real no more