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Had to start changing

Cos I got sick and tired of waiting

Faking a smile while I was debating

Contemplating the worst, it was draining

Constantly blaming

Everyone else but myself for my hatred

Brewing and raging, always complaining

That was my life, no lie, it was straining

Then I started changing

Stopped caring for peoples ratings

Everyone's on going out celebrating

But they're all gone when the clouds start raining

Started escaping

Off in my own head, taking vacations

Can't do shit with no dedication

Had no drive, then I started changing

Had to start changing

Cos I got sick tired of waiting

Anticipating the worst, it was making me sick

And I could feel my heart breaking

On edge, I felt my world shaking

Belly would turn at the sight of the bacon

Honestly mate, it was peak, didn't sleep

For a week and I swear I felt my brain aching

When I found out bro was deceased

I was weak and it was me I was blaming

Went from hating everyone else

To pointing finger at self and shaming

What you know about taking

Meds for your head til it's weight that you're gaining

Used to be skinny and sniff cocaine

My life's been a maze but it ain't been amazing

I was young, I was dumb and I drunk

Way too much rum until I was spun

It's mad, I was oh so sad

But everyone must have thought I was just dumb

Still a kid and I hid from myself

Didn't tell no one until I told Mum

Weren't even having fun

Had to tell myself, this cannot run

Life changes, you can't avoid it

I was slipping and man enjoyed it

Now half of the ones that boyed it

Are out here sniffing shit gear in the toilets

Their opinions voided

Couldn't give a shit who I've disappointed

King of my own world, I've been anointed

Felt so low, now my souls been hoisted

Had to start changing

Cos I got sick and tired of waiting

Faking a smile while I was debating

Contemplating the worst, it was draining

Constantly blaming

Everyone else but myself for my hatred

Brewing and raging, always complaining

That was my life, no lie, it was straining

Then I started changing

Stopped caring for peoples ratings

Everyone's on going out celebrating

But they're all gone when the clouds start raining

Started escaping

Off in my own head, taking vacations

Can't do shit with no dedication

Had no drive, then I started changing

Let me be real for a minute and say how I feel

I was feeling ill for a minute

Had to take a step back, relax and heal

Shit went left, got mad but still

Had time for the ones that left me to stress

When I needed them most, it's a joke but still

Man, I did what I could and I kept it real

I ain't got no appeal

To most man cos I don't wanna deal

With the false friendships, fuck that, end it

For the most part, keep my lips sealed

Cos how can I chill

With man that don't understand how I feel

Mourning in the morning

And grieving in the evening, it kills

But I still gotta get up

Charged up and I won't let up

Life's been fucked, ain't had much luck

And it's starting to feel like a set up

Feeling fed up

Any old beat get dead up

Time's going fast, like oh my gosh

I swear all the seasons sped up

Best be for the better

People change with the weather

I've got mates that'll do nice rates

On the flavours, haze or the cheddar

I'll keep it together

Til I reach the end of my tether

My ex changed in a matter of days

And now I wish that I never met her

Had to start changing

Cos I got sick and tired of waiting

Faking a smile while I was debating

Contemplating the worst, it was draining

Constantly blaming

Everyone else but myself for my hatred

Brewing and raging, always complaining

That was my life, no lie, it was straining

Then I started changing

Stopped caring for peoples ratings

Everyone's on going out celebrating

But they're all gone when the clouds start raining

Started escaping

Off in my own head, taking vacations

Can't do shit with no dedication

Had no drive, then I started changing

If you feel like you gotta make a change

Best make a change then

Best make a change

Clock that I'm old when I go

To my bro's and I see a playpen, boy and a girl

I was locked up, where the nittys ask

For a blast on your vape pen

Yeah, they beg for a blast

I was feeling peak for a week

But I settled in by day ten

Cool and calm

Stopped caring for peoples ratings

Why? Cos I don't rate them

Swear

Life's not fair, now I just don't

Care, huh

If I don't make friends, oh I see

Fool for another souls shit

No, you will never see a day when, nope, never

I'm done tryna impress pricks

Fuck that, can I get an amen? Amen

Cos I'm changing, morphing, lacking endorphins

Blessed in the night but agg in the mornings

My mood swings don't come with a warning

If they did, my life would be boring

Everyone's up for the champagne pouring

But they aint there when the stress starts calling

Fair weather friends, I find it appalling

Know about low, so I wanna be soaring

Trust me

Conceded, so I gotta start scoring

If I ain't writing, probably recording

So tired that my eyes are watering

I don't know a thing about shows or touring

But pass me the mic and I'm corning

When I'm off license, time for exploring

Changes I'm making, they may be rewarding

Had to start changing

Cos I got sick and tired of waiting

Faking a smile while I was debating

Contemplating the worst, it was draining

Constantly blaming

Everyone else but myself for my hatred

Brewing and raging, always complaining

That was my life, no lie, it was straining

Then I started changing

Stopped caring for peoples ratings

Everyone's on going out celebrating

But they're all gone when the clouds start raining

Started escaping

Off in my own head, taking vacations

Can't do shit with no dedication

Had no drive, then I started changing