i can't Lyrics

In the nighttime counting the stars

Tryna clear my mind of problems that's surrounding my heart

The light been shining on me but I'm drowning in dark

They didn't think I'd be a rapper but I'm sounding the part yeah

Ay, she say these verses an art

I'll let my numbers talk for me I'm conversing through charts

As other women emerge, my urges worsen to part

Ending it right where it started I'm reversing the start because I can't,

Girl I just can't

Deal with these emotions that are eating me alive

I'm thankful for my father always teaching me to thrive

I'm thankful for the people that were pushing me aside that's where my passion and my heart are derived

Presence felt, everybody's been aware I've arrived

She found love at first sight, once she looked in my eyes

To be honest girl I promise I'm not even surprised, I'm just one of a kind

Torturous success, it's easy but it isn't

It used to be impossible to get someone to listen

I'm scared that friends around me only round me on conditions

If my money fades will they disappear like magicians I'm so gone

Yeah

My friends went and betrayed me any chance that they got

Envy changes their perspective now they want me to flop

There's so much more to discover when you deep in the plot

I breakdown when I wonder if they need me or not

Like do you need me or not

Then I remember I'm successful and my talents elite

Like Dame Lillard I been chilling in that Miami Heat

It ain't a breeze, know you see me and how it easy it seems I turned defeat into the blossoming of all of my dreams

Countless memories of ours I'll never seem to delete

We went from lovers to some foreigners that don't even speak

Sitting by the fire, got Sinatra on the speaker

She told me bout her mom and how she can't wait till I meet her

Last night was the happiest that I had ever seen her but I had to just be honest that I sadly had to leave her

I'm sorry but I'm going away, I truly wish I could stay

The darkest hours of the present make the brightest of rays

I'll miss the way that you would always seem to brighten my day

If I showed you all my sorrow I could cry you a lake

But I conceal it in the form of a smile

Still running laps around my haters counting 4ths of a mile

Envision being with my woman, while we're holding the child

She'll look pretty in her dress, while she walk down the aisle

Yeah, told my mom that I would buy her a house

Used to dream about realities I'm living in now

When I was little I would always dream bout going to space

Now all I ever dream about is having some space aye