Lost Lyrics

I am lost in my self

With clothes from lost

A type of surf brand

With waves in the ocean

Drowned trough emotions

Even tho it's just a design

Yeah

My mind is tripping

The dogs been barking

My mom is calling

Telling me that i gotta eat well

And i just ate a fucking slide of P

Like if that's enough to be a good child

I'm wild on me cause i been having this pressure on my chest

I'm boutta ripped my tee to let my thoughts be free

You hating me like we got beef

But i been in the back of my crib making this beat

And this wack ass lyrics that doesn't mean nothing to me

I put my situation on god but he told that I can be better than that

And dad, told me that i cannot do that

So what am i supposed to do with this drama

Over the phone while i was talking with my momma,

And she said she proud of me but I don't feel it

Anyways i feel like i been living life since i turned eighteen

My tears won't fall even if i try to cry

I wish i could try to die

Cause i couldn't cry

And i swear that i tried

If this the new me then i deserved to be fucked up

Cause a fucked up men deserves a fucked up life

But

Still wish to get famous

Still wish to get nameless

I mean my name is Ismael not Mael

OTB is just a label that i made with no

Meaning for nobody else but me,

And i know it says off the beat

But nobody know what is the meaning of what ever i did

And if you wanna know it just repeat this shit

Cause once I disappear

Your life won't be near

My heart full of fears

Eyes outta tears

Tears out my eyes when i was seventeen

But i never imagined how this shit could be so

I'm sorry to my self for being me

And even tho my shit gets tuff

I still wish for good things