How to Pause Lyrics

Wrote the first rap back in 2004

With the sox hat back, robbing candy from the store

Little northeast city, I'm just genuinely bored

Though there's plenty to adore, I'm so ready to explore

After graduation, I'll be flyin' out of state

Like I'm tryin' to escape, all that's piled on my plate

Lil' child on a chase, ain't no doubt I'll make it

Got the grind that it takes, been designed for that sake

Backpack on a bus and now I'm headed up to Venice

Said I might as well be dead if I don't ever get the lettuce

In my head I'm just a menace turned the soul of my apprentice

I'm dependin' on the bread and every second I'm not present

Placin' all my worth on all the things that I achieve

Now I'm noticin' my soul is feelin' empty and deceived

The more I push it forward, more my energy depletes

This depression wicked deep, no possession could relieve

Ever since the baby I was, uh yeah

Turnin' on the NOS, now I'm learnin' how to pause

I fully am myself, I ain't worried about the flaws

I see them on the hustle, always hurryin' at dawn

That used to be the kid always buryin' the heart

Scurryin' and lost, now I'm learnin' how to pause

I fully am myself, I ain't worried about the flaws

Used to do it for myself, now I'm servin' for the cause

Yeah, yeah, I see him all around

I see him all around, tryin' to make it and achieve

Thinkin' once they make it, then the pain will all recede

But it ain't just what it seems

The feelin' that we chasin' isn't hangin' in a dream

And the more you reel it in, the more deflating it'll be

Ain't about the paper validation, it's a scheme

It's awareness in the moment that you capable and free

That you came here so complete, yeah

Now my meditation's always guided by Dispenza

I been tappin' in my future and designin' my agenda

I'm a being full of light, you can't define me by a gender

Crib out in Sedona, I be flyin' to the desert

When I'm tapped into my power, I'm too powerful to measure

Had to learn these lessons, wasn't ready at the jump

Now I'm ready to debunk all the lies

They been tellin' every fella in the run

Wanna get you in a rut

Fuck all of the bullshit, this a parasitic bust

And you know the corporations that been leveragin' this stuff

I pay it no attention, now that energy is yuck

I'm just takin' care of me and puttin' lavender in tubs

Puttin' passion in the gut, puttin' matches to the blunt

Turnin' on the NOS, now I'm learnin' how to pause

I fully am myself, I ain't worried about the flaws

I see them on the hustle, always hurryin' at dawn

That used to be the kid aways buryin' the heart

Scurrying and lost, now I'm learnin' how to pause

I fully am myself, I ain't worried about the flaws

Used to do it for myself, now I'm servin' for the cause