Deserve My Depression Lyrics

It's been a long ride

Gotta see it through

Think I see the truth

My thoughts are finally getting through

Wishing you could see what I become

Looking up to space

Wishing I could see your face

I never knew this was the way my life was gonna go

Really hoping imma make it gotta take it slow

Only time will tell if this is how my life will go

You up and left me

Didn't make you proud

I love you though

A lonely man

Caught up in another trap

The way I'm living

Understand that it was not the plan

Throughout the years I truly missed out on another path

The path I wanted had it all and now there's nothing left

I'm looking up to god

Asking for a hand

Can you help me stand?

It's getting harder everyday to get up out my bed

I keep on fighting

Through the crying

Breaking down

I keep on trying to contain myself

I'm pushing trynna find a way out

It's been a long ride

I gotta see it through

Think I see the truth

My thoughts are finally getting through

Wishing you could see what I become

Looking up to space

Wishing I could see your face

I never knew this was the way my life was gonna go

Really hoping imma make it gotta take it slow

Only time will tell if this is how my life will go

You up and left me

Didnt make you proud

I love you so

Through the pain

I finally got the fame

Taking all the time to write down

The shame that I face while I pace

Thinking bout those days that I begged for grace

I never understood the hate

Everyday I prayed

Tried to change my ways

Fell and gone insane

Put the pain in my work

Write it down in a verse

Gotta know I lost it and it hurt

It's funny when you all alone

You thinking to yourself

About the situations going on

Its everybody else

Why is it so hard to take the blame

For shit that you create

Realized its my own fault

And I was digging my own grave

Even though I made it

Never learned my lesson

I'll be transparent

I was never faithful

That's my confession

I was wronging all these women

I deserve my depression

Just know I'm sorry

I'm sorry