Kin ft. The Carter Sue Lyrics

The worst part about betrayal it's from people that you held close used to treat you like you kin

Now I see you as a ghost

I got issues with my trust

I mistrust myself the most

Self-inflicting with my actions

Let me tell you through these notes

I ain't really get no sleep these days

I lay in fear of hope

Knowing if my hopes high I could fall and die slow

I cloak my fears inside of tropes that you tend to hear and know

Try to masquerade my shame by showing bravado But if you get close enough

You can see the front entirely and that's why I got walls up

So you ain't peep the cracks that's inside of me

Fall apart silently

That's how I always wanted it

Cause if I tell you how I really feel about my life

I'm scared you won't be a part of it

My soul is torn in pieces got it lookin like the Gaza Strip

A part of me wants happiness

A part of me wants wealth and bliss

A part of me wants every other part of me to shut up and just let me live

I'm holding tight don't let me slip

Life been like a sinking ship

Try to smell the roses

But I'm Jack cause no matter what I give

I still fall to the abyss

I still question if I'll ever get a hit

I still question if a hit is even what I want to get

I still question if my clique was ever riding for the kid

I still question if my passion worth the sacrifice I give

I still question if my hopes and dreams were nothing more than fleeting thoughts of adolescent me

Ironic how the older that I grow the more I try and seek some clarity

I lost some friends at 23

And we too young for RIPs

I hate my pride cause it leads to lack of solidarity

I should've hit you up and now we'll never get the chance to speak

I Can't express how much that bothers me

But time moves

I can't sit with grief forever

So I use it as the fuel improve

I hate the media

Cause all they tend to do is judge

And I ain't ever judge a man if I ain't know what they had been through

Look I march to the beat of my drum

Cause my city needs a cymbal

Dark nights ahead and I ain't mean the bat symbol

My bro told me to cherish every moment cause nothing in life is ever accidental

That means if you live in misery yo next chapter is monumental

See I'm livin' in the present but writing history when I grab the pencil

I'm still paranoid that the closest people still befriend you

If God testing me I know that means the Devil sent you

Did he send you for me?

I know

Did he send you for me?

I know

Why is it always me?

I know

Why is it always

I don't know

You see me blowing up and now you wanna call up on me

Now you wanna talk about me

You see me blowing up and now you wanna call up on me

Now you wanna talk about me

It's alright my love

You'd never wait on me

Gave you all my heart

You never gave me anything

Waited till' I was gone

Then you changed on me

Now I'm on my own

And better than you'll ever be

You changed

You changed

You changed up on me

My darling dear

Holy matrimony

You changed your ways

And switched up on me

You changed up on me quick