BONUS: bargaining/compromise (2020 demo) Lyrics

Is it worth all the ringing?

Is it worth all the pain?

Is it worth the pretending?

The fear?

The disdain?

Is it worth it to imagine what I'm feeling won't last?

Is it hard to adjust to the regrets of the past?

Is it really still working

The thin, weak facade?

Can I really still maintain my emotional guard?

My costume is tearing

My patience is wearing

My ears begin to bleed

As I feel the monster staring

And the fear converts to anger

As I begin to see red

And the anger turns to sadness

As my stomach fills with dread

And it feels like the agony will never end

But there's so much to see now

So much more to do

There's no more time to be regretting how we made it through

The sun will keep on rising

And fading at dusk

So it's worth the compromising just to see it come up

Perhaps there is more here than once it did seem

More joy to be discovered, more information to glean

The world will keep on spinning

When I'm frowning or I'm grinning

When I'm surrounded or alone

When I'm praying or I'm sinning

So I've made my decision

No, I won't be playing victim

To the thoughts that keep on morphing and distorting my vision

This is where I take my final stand

So if you can, please take this bottle from my hand

Before I change my mind and sacrifice these new plans

I've tried this before, to put a bandage on this sore

But every time it starts to rain, it just falls back to the floor

Sometimes all it takes is some time and some patience

To heal and start again; to rearrange all the pieces

So you can say the world is biased to justify your compliance

But the ringing in my ears isn't half as deafening as your silence

So I'll take my stand in an attempt to cure this cursed virus

So take my hand

Hold it till the end