afterlife Lyrics

I'm lost in the midst of a mist

A mist so dense I can't see the scabs on my fists

I don't even see the path that i'm taking

I guide myself with the dirt and sticks ripping my skin

The humidity makes it hard to breathe

So much pain, but I just wanna leave

Forgetting the shit that my body needs

Feeling like giving it up, losing my belief

Hold that, maybe I'm alive, maybe I'm dead

Hold that, maybe I'm alive, maybe I'm dead

In fact, this is the most alive I have felt

I hope I don't realize I'm not dead

Cuz I dont wanna go back,

To dealing with the shit I dealt with, no thanks

I don't wanna go back,

And keep overthinking every step that I make

Keep living in fear

Keep on hoping and wishing to disappear

Keep on reminiscing every thing I'm missing from my past and wishing to have it all back

Regretting my decisions, my actions and every single word that I have ever said