dissociation Lyrics

Already knew at a young age

Eyes were stuck

On boys it was okay

Never really thought

It was a mistake

But then enter my pops

There was no way

Fading slowly

Upon this doorway

I seemed alone

It's time to leave this home

Mama why we gotta move again

I'm always making friends

I'm losing who I am

I guess I'm fitting in

Never gonna blend another way

I guess this is an issue for me later

Cause right now

I just wanna be loved

I didn't know

What it meant to be a homo

Or why I couldn't be close

To other kids I guess I'll let go

Cause I was scared

They would say no

If they found out how I glow

I'm better off dimming the lights

I'm better off giving up my rights

Your friends gonna shun you

Call you evil

Trained in their minds

Your people aren't equal

Moving place to place

Feels like endless sequels

Now you must erase

Your inner self be deceitful

You've come too far

There's no way out

Finally accepted

There's no change now

Bottle up that person

You are deep down

Cause at their table

There's a seat now

Fading slowly

Upon this doorway

I seemed alone

It's time to leave this home

Mama why we gotta move again

I'm always making friends

I'm losing who I am

I guess I'm fitting in