Toxic Self-Reliance Lyrics

Everything I do I gotta do it by myself

For the longest time this is how I've felt

Wanna get away wanna hide myself

Who you gonna call with a cry for help

Feeling like everybody lean on me

Can't stop now got a dream on me

When the game on the line and my name on the line gotta figure something out I don't see no team

Always on call when they need me

Oh 5th gon do it off GP

I need I need I need I need I need like they got it on repeat

Clean up hitter I'm a neat freak

Gotta know it all like a cheat sheet

Gotta get gone need a retreat

Cause it's back to back to back, three peat

Hell yea, stay looking out for they welfare

But where can I turn for some child support

Married to the life til I file divorce

See me reach for the raft but they drown ya boy

And it ain't like I and never found the source

I ain't saying that, I'm just saying that

Sometimes y'all make me wanna fade to black

Just to keep the peace and my brain intact

Cause I've lent a hand when they was in a jam

But when I gave em slack they ain't pay me back

Had to face the fact I'm the one to blame cause I been way too nice

I'm ashamed of that, before you go sharing yo two sense

I know what you think, I told my shrink

I said they ain't got me like I got them

She said man that's crazy and poured a drink and said

It's Toxic, and I know it

When I'm boxed in I got moments

Where the voice in my head starts taking over can't lie it's hard to control it

But I'm focused on fixing things I seen around me that's broken

To the point I get broke down myself I need help this is me being open

Oh what I wouldn't do for a back rub, a relaxing soak in my bathtub

How can it be all these folks round me who I hustle for but I lack love

And I love where I live at, still wanna give back

Still gonna fight for it, still get our lick back

Feel like a fool when I turn on the news

Then walk around smiling like everything's cool

The water the streets the garbage the crime

I'm starting to think that it's all the design

I been here for decades I saw the decline

They fall for the prime and follow the blind

All of the time, look at these pains, look at these thangs, top of the line

My light is real, no stopping my shine

Fakers will crack at the drop of a dime

Later for that I got mountains to climb

Ducking the goofies we get to the bread

Guess I could tell you or prove it instead

Foot on they neck til they do what I said

Check on your strong friend

I know I'm complaining but end of the day I'm just thankful

First for my wife and my baby I'd kill for and

Two because baby I'm built for it that's why I