Dear Diary Lyrics

It's out of question that's it's out of character

That a person of my caliber hasn't burnt up the calendar yet

Wait a minute I'm just taking a break

Had to switch up my focus had a lot on my plate

And I ain't talking literal but for reality sake

I've had to focus on bills, how I mentally feel

When it comes to career I've been playing the field

Went and got a CDL so next time you'll see me well

At least I hope so, decisions ain't so easy when you checking your account and the Numbers make you queasy

You eating up your dinner and feeling this don't please me

You dying at your job so you scream this job beneath me

But you need that money, you low on funds, you getting calls, but you can't respond,

You miss your phone bill again come on dawg

Where's your priorities

I don't know

I had dreams of being better and I'm nowhere near it

I'm twenty-three without this and that that's what I'm hearing

I've lived this life with nothing to show that's what I'm fearing

So God help me find my purpose that's what I'm needing

He answer back in my prayers like you already know it

I blessed you with a gift, go out and show it

I answer back and tell him how I wish it was that easy

He said son you mess, call me when you need me

He had me thinking am I tripping for real

Do I have all the cards and I'm just missing the deal

What's the deal, what's the situation, what I miss

If I have what I need why am I feeling like this

I've been on the road too long, my mind is playing some tricks

You know how solitude treats the Ghetto boys

Mess around play with us like some toys

Got me out here feeling unsure

Unsure about what

The reason for my desperation

Gotta have a destination better than my old location

It's not a story if I end where I started at

That's the motto for the movement on uncharted paths

I want the glory, a legacy, and a little cash

Whatever keeps me remembered when I come to pass

That's why I'm itching for purpose like a nasty rash

I've been broke for so long I can't afford the cast

That's why I'm hoping that this script will just flabbergast

I want to move the vast mass like a boarding pass

Warm your heart, touch your soul, laugh and pass gas

All from the story of the introspective outcast

My idle mind went idle wild but I calmed it down

Beats, rhymes, and life that's how I settle down

The tribe taught me about the quest that I'm running now

Life is drifting by so I need to get a hold

Peace and boldness, the greatest lesson ever told

An angel taught me that when she saw my chosen road

Don't know direction but I know to follow my soul

When too much tension I just know to follow my flow

When apprehensive I just know to follow the code

To live within your life you have to go to unknowns

I'm pushing past the limits, I cannot live a sentence

That I placed upon myself because I'm scared to finish

What I start from the heart, leave a mark is what I harp, but I dart from the dark, out of Fear of it's part

Can I roll through the toll that it'll take on my soul

Am I bold in my role in the fight for control

Yeah the goals to be whole but part of me was just sold

On some lies that disguised all the greatness that's inside

As a dream or a prize that will never finalize

But the doubt that I have man I'll never let it rise

No no I'll never let it rise

Oh it's time to let it all go

Oh yeah I'll never let it rise rise

Dear Diary

It's not hard to discover, I'm far from any other

They look at life like black and white and I'm in the living color

That's no longer a sitcom and no longer can I do that either

Wrong or right I'll write my soul out tonight

A sacrifice it's time for me

I Visualize a flower in a landfill

Growth is always the struggle but somehow it doesn't stand still

No matter the circumstance it always lets it's beauty shine

I find that synonymous to myself and to all likeminded individuals

No matter our environment or our circumstances mentally or physically

We can still find a way to fight, grow, rise, and shine our beauty