i recall cherry blossoms... Lyrics

I recall cherry blossoms

At the onset of death throes.

And then a year passed in obscurity,

In what felt like one foul season,

Marked with the dimness of hunger,

And a swarm of failures;

Left with nothing but a soured resignation,

Somehow something did bud upon the grayness.

Nothing has hardened me more,

Nothing has stripped me of so many leathered layers.

Weathered and cured and

Manically glued

I saw death in everything --

In a whisper;

Between silent gestures;

In the tone of the voice of a friend.

In the midst of this storm,

In the company of ghosts,

A coward and helpless,

I found a warm punishment

In doing harm to my mind.

A blade through spongey butter.

A face to the flowers who

Thrust themselves at me.

I had no choice but to cut myself away.

For at the head of bedrock

That was the utmost I could do.

I found the core supple.

And better yet it was lighter.

Some residue of that

Impassioned adhesive remains.

I cannot tell if it is dried

Or if it reaches still for melding.

I have yet my fears after all.

And one of them looks

To the cherry blossoms

When they might fall upon me.