chasing waves ft. TatendaLXA Lyrics

Really I'm burnt out

Tired of holding in the hurt now

I've been pushing past the point of no return

And now I'm mapping out the worst routes

Carrying a burden pray it works out

Accomplishment never show face

I've been sitting on my hands, it's been a slow day

Got so many things I need to do

If I don't move, I hope it go away

I know that's not the case

I just built a foundation on quicksand

Trynna find that temporary fix and

Bandaids on broke bones like wristband

Bright ideas a stone's throw from this man, I'm just saying

It feels mindless, droning, scrolling

The focus relentless when I'm in my zone

And control ain't the omen I thought it was

Treading water, stay afloat, as the water rushes over us

It's just out of habit can't control it

Powerless to my whole motive

This new normal isn't how I want things

Still, I'm seeking change, procrastinating

Running wild, unmotivated, oh

Where'd I go wrong? Oh

Feel like reaching balance that I ain't seen

Since eighteen, I've been seeking all the same things

From daydreams in my mind, for safekeeping

I complain but stayed sleep, and lately

Going with the flow when the rapid change

Flooded with emotion how it activate me

Get washed up still seeking that happy place

Might have me crashing every wave before I catch a break

But I don't wanna crash, no

I've been chasing waves for the longest time

Don't know how I'm getting back though

Said I don't know, oh, I don't know

I don't wanna crash though

I don't wanna break, I see how that turn out, I know

Oh, I know

Well-intentioned with a work ethic to match

Anxiety trynna spark a fire inside me

Watching the embers burning quietly

It's always something that's gon' rain on your parade

Just trying me

I'm still looking for variety

Write "Dear diary,

Today I woke up, right?

Feeling tore up, from the sole up

Wasn't ready for close-up," like

The fear of failure had my back against the ropes

And I'm not Jimmy, raising hope

So why you think that I would show up? That's so unwise

It's almost comical

If I can't find it in my heart to laugh at my own pain, that's irresponsible

Given the option, I'll find a way to hurdle the obstacles

Where talking self-love might seem impossible

Can't contradict me

My days off shift confidence

Faults and false promises bottomless

But still can't sink me

And since we brushing up again

I think it's time that we threw caution to the wind and learn to swim

But I don't wanna crash, no

I've been chasing waves for the longest time

Don't know how I'm getting back though

Said I don't know, oh, I don't know

I don't wanna crash though

I don't wanna break, I see how that turn out, I know

Oh, I know

It's just out of habit can't control it

Powerless to my whole motive

This new normal isn't how I want things

Still, I'm seeking change, procrastinating

Running wild, unmotivated, oh

Where'd I go wrong? Oh