Kill love (unofficial version) Lyrics

If i had one wish

I would rewind time

Take it back to the days way before i was nine and a nigga had a dream that

I could never reach and screams from my pops is all in my blood stream

Fast forward I'm in high school never was the fly dude

Walking through the halls bumping j cole on iTunes

Want to be a rapper while these other niggas trappers

But it never really mattered i could make your brain splatter if you want

I really had my goals but i let it get tainted fucking around with the hoes

I was never really focus was way too open i always felt broken

But yet i was so outspoken when at times I really felt like I'm drowning in the ocean

My heart is hard as metal so now it's causing corrosion

I only started drinking to really help with coping how the fuck you gonna tell me

I'm the mother fucking spokesman's

This is real love

But I swear a lot of times man I just want to kill love

I guess they say that's real love

I never felt real love

But when I look into my daughters eyes i know this is how it's pose to feel love

Do you think know real love

As a nigga getting older im starting to have regret

Cause im about to be thirty and im not living my best

I thought that I would be on with my shawty on my arm

I wish that I could go back and really sound the alarm

Little nigga you gotta do you cause all them fucking YouTube's

You watching aint gonna get you to where the fuck you need to fuck going on dates

Trying to open gates so you ain't gotta walk in life but maybe roll on some skates

But no body ever pushed you and that's the fucking issue

Because you spoke with confidence no body sees the real you

Walking with these open wounds its only you that's healing you

Fuck a loaded gun because its only you that's killing you

Now that I'm a father dawg I got to be better

Lately i been feeling bitter cause i been chasing the cheddar

Cause I do this on my own I ain't never felt at home

Unless I'm living in the chaos my whole life I was shown

And now I'm bringing back the cycle i'm feeling like I'm Michael but this

Pen is my knife and when I write I'm a psycho

If my life was a script i think I found couple typos

Aiming right at the target like I'm a bow and arrow

I feel it in my bone marrow I'm gonna battle the present yeah

From a peasant to a pharaoh ima shift a different gear

Call me jack sparrow i narrow the rivers every where

And try and be better every time we hit a different year

Real love

But I swear a lot of times man I just want to kill love

I guess they say that's real love

I never felt real love

But when I look into my daughters eyes i know this is how it's pose to feel love

Do you think know real love

Sometimes i wanna kill love