i dont wanna die ft. freedombeats Lyrics

You know pain changes people

It's the reality we live in

The world around us

Has so much of hatred and suffering

They see depression as a problem

And even after everything

I've been through with childhood trauma

It's who I am

I just, I don't wanna die

Pain inside my heart

Takes me back to the start

Cause I can not hide

I'm a shadow in the dark

You only see

Everything I let you see

You don't see when I cry

This is reality

Don't wanna die

I can't lie

Want my life

To feel alive

Want to be something

I felt like nothing

Am I really sadder

Does it really matter

If I make people smile

Down the ladder

Glass that shatters

But from the inside out

I went from first to last

I then put on my my mask

Then I went from being down

To somebody that can't be found

I'm haunted by my past

I don't wanna go back

But I always seem to find

The blood inside mind

No one understands

What I'm going through

Cause you don't know

The secrets that I hold

Will I survive

I don't know

Don't wanna die

I can't lie

Want my life

To feel alive

Want to be something

I felt like nothing

Am I really sadder

Does it really matter

If I make people smile

Down the ladder

Glass that shatters

But from the inside out

Give me a year or two

I'll be someone new

I'll be back to my roots

You're not in my shoes

What's there to lose

I'll be burning my tomb

Back to the dunes

Monsters dies in the fumes

Don't wanna die

I can't lie

Want my life

To feel alive

Want to be something

I felt like nothing

Am I really sadder

Does it really matter

If I make people smile

Down the ladder

Glass that shatters

But from the inside out