altering my chemistry ft. Desmo. Lyrics

I've been feeling animated

Cause I always seem so drawn to

Making music bout my life

And how I live without you

I get it, it's been a minute

But we always make the time to

Go and check on eachother

To see who's got the better view

Yeah, bitch you know

I got the Rockies painted in my sights

Yeah, bitch you know

I went crazy in my fucking mind

Back in Ocala I can't get my mind off the matter

I was ruining my life every night with one drink at a time

Started fucking with shrooms and opened up my third eye

Tried controlling the booze and focusing on getting high

I didn't give a fuck about my life

I started popping benzos and the adderall

Losing grip on what the fuck is wrong and right

Lost my homie to the coronavirus

I should have been the one to die

Rest in peace to my boy

I'll see you soon

Yeah, we'll be flying high

Brother just know that I think about you

Man, like all the time

I'm chasing dreams, being annoying

I'm doing this until it's my time

I started thinking what do I do

Started selling all my furniture

Instead of drinking all my booze

I figured I had to leave

I had to pack my shit and move

Following the light

I literally had nothing left to lose

When you heard the news

You found another reason to believe it wasn't true

Cause I broke our trust and that's why you left me

For some kid who can't fill my shoes

He's a great value version of me

Then he wonders why you think of me and how I became his worst enemy

Depression altering my chemistry

Coming at me cause you can't control your jealousy

See my numbers growing steadily

Wondering how I came up with all these melodies

You know I got the recipe

When you get a taste you're breathing heavily

Try to pin me for a felony

Cause I'm driving drunk so recklessly

In a fifty going seventy

Turning up the music so I can raise up the intensity

Can't fuck with me

I'm just speaking generally

When I die I'll leave behind a legacy

When you listen to my music it's like being off the ecstasy

Changing my brain chemically

Following my dreams is my true destiny

Making music that will live on endlessly

I even went and changed my entity

Wondering why I'm NeverxHappy

It really just means that I don't fuck with complacency

That's why I stay undefeated

Doesn't matter cause I'll get back up to find the remedy

Stay high and caffeinated

Out in Denver always faded

But I still try and show that I'm dedicated

In this economy we inflated

Still following the plan that I created

On my shoulders the world is weighted

I never thought that I would make it

Always made my life so mothafuckin' complicated

Just know I never did this for the compensation

I do it for the healing of my mind I fabricated