Sickness Lyrics

I'm just killing time waiting for the sickness to take me away

And I won't fight it, I don't need no more, I already died

I don't think you understand what it's like for me

Can't stay sober for the life of me

Stare at broken mirrors tryna fight for me

Memories of jail sent a kite to me

Eighteen in the field, I was banging for real

Chilling with my homie all the night he got killed

Mama kicked me out so I started to deal

Saw the pistol smoke from releasing the steel

Conversation with the devil when my time's up

You a gangsta, Or a saint make your mind up

Money on my mind tryna shine cuz

Man of my word, tryna grind bruh

But sit back for a minute and don't let it fool you

But what I've started diminished before a second

That I thought that you'd be there for me

You said you always cared for me

I'm just killing time waiting for the sickness to take me away

And I won't fight it, I don't need no more, I already died

I've been sick and confused, ready to explode like I'm blowing a fuse

Feelin so alive when I'm sipping the goose

Or when i'm bustin' down doors and I'm clutching the tool

You want me to admit it, addicted to the rush

When I started I finished, but don't think for a minute

When I get on the mic that I won't create a clinic

You say I'm selfish like I could never care for you

Like I was never there for you

Only when I'm broke I be soaking in pain

I get so out of line when I'm blowing the cane

Only time I feel okay is when I'm sipping champagne

Or when the rain's coming down penetrating my brain

It's best if you leave, don't tell me where you go

Go and be free, you'll be better on your own

My sickness is wicked, destroy a happy home

It's just me and my demons, But I been so alone

I'm just killing time waiting for the sickness to take me away

And I won't fight it, I don't need no more

And I already died