by the grain Lyrics

Realistically wasting my time, and

Don't claim you understand

You'll run out of road if you're way too gassed

We'll never last this

I wanna know myself 'foreIshould take my life

The other side's so inviting

Why you hanging 'round the wrong peers?

2D smiles but they're full of fear

I can see through the white lies

Fuck a check, i ain't switch sides

Matter of fact, thinkI'llown mine

Call it wraps, called her 5 times

Colon cramps, body's prolly fine

I been worse, and burnt more ties than mountains climbed

What the fuck

I hardly get any rest

WhenIlay me some ground

All my dreams make me sweat

Well, honestly what'dIexpect, i'm a tremor

Who's born to make course with a crest

And since you've got room to assume,

I'll repaint the walls to a shade you once knew

ButI'llsay it once to conclude

It's only to falter youth

Sending it down through my face to my gut

Fireworks sound while i've waited enough

I ain't care much, i been down on my love shit

After effect of it damage and lunges

Kicking and punching

Wonder and covet

Smoke in this ovenIclaim to be nothing

Under the covers, i wake into sunder

And panic then start to malfunction

These eyes are so indecisive

Catching the sights that are so uninvited

Well, anything but ultraviolet

Going outside, my anxiety heightens

SoI'llstay inside and be silent

Minus the music and all of the crying

Don't keep a snooze 'cause i'm up when the sky dim

Yet prone to mute and respond autopilot

She told me that i'm smart

"I'm better than that?"

She told meIcan start to feel something

She told meIcould be something greater

Then she left a hole inside my chest, like a crater

No one

To lend a hand

Through the sawdust

In this foreign land

Is this all that you want?

Forever we run, even if we're not

Indefinite rot

Smoldered lungs whileItalk

And no it ain't from the green

From birth i've been clean

ButIkinda wanna be, to escape reality

No way this life was meant for me

Never willIcome to be fine with low expectancies

I'm fucking selfish, can't you see?

A frozen-hearted entity

Thaw the guard that shadows me

Too intolerant to speak

Cut my lips and break my teeth

Numb my limbs, but make it brief

I've got nowhere else to be

But miss the way it used to be

Did you feel the same for me

My eyes cry with the help of high life

Can't you tellIrepel with a fat lie

Any sort of love will numb me; numb enough to pass life

I sense two decisions

One's to splurge my thoughts and cast rhymes

It was 8 in the morning, i'm shipped like i'm cargo

Heart in my chest beating out like a bongo

Swipin' a scan of myself like a bar code

Way past the date by some days, not alarmed though

Rotten a bit, feelin' sick, sorta rank

'Lil bit of soap, it could wash out the stains

I ain't been fuckin' with none of y'all lames

A couple of plays, now you thinkin' you great

This not a game, fuck a charade

Pressing the keys untilIfeel okay

Throughout the day

'TillIcollapse and wake up on my face

Block out the sound with a video game

Or something to drink

Lemon and sugar remind me of fate

It's sorta sour but sweet by the grain

Sweet by the grain, ay

She told meIwas smart

"I'm better than that?"

She told meIcan feel something

She told meIcould be something greater

Then she left a hole inside my chest, like a crater