hate me Lyrics

I'm living in a nightmare

Everyday is heavy with despair

And the more I wait the worse it gets

But will the weight make me not care

If I spill my guts

Will you catch them

Fore' they hit the floor

Probably not

Cus' it's not a long shot

You won't love me anymore

Even if I say it

You won't listen anyway

You'll say it's just a phase

You'll give me a headache

You'll think I don't know what I'm saying

But I finally know who I am

I got a lot to say

But that's a lot of wasted breath to take

Not talking makes me fake

Cus' I know I'm gunna lose you either way

This would just give you a real reason to hate me

Maybe it's for the best

I don't need you to save me

Wishing I could find myself

Wish I could let it out

Wish I could be someone else

Not be filled with this doubt

You say you'll be here

But I know you're lying

Cus where are you

When I'm alone crying

I can feel my bridges burning

It's the real me you don't like

And you'd think that I'd be hurting

But I've held this breath in my whole life

This could be let go

And if would free me in one night

So if I can't let it go

I might as well let my dreams die

And I can't let you take that from me

I don't have to care what you think

My happiness is all I wanna see

I'd show you what is underneath

But you'll say I don't know what I'm saying

You'll try to force me to go into hiding

I got a lot to say

But that's a lot of wasted breath to take

Not talking makes me fake

Cus' I know I'm gunna lose you either way

This would just give you a real reason to hate me

Maybe it's for the best

I don't need you to save me

Wishing I could find myself

Wish I could let it out

Wish I could be someone else

Not be filled with this doubt

You say you'll be here

But I know you're lying

Cus where are you

When I'm alone crying

I got a lot to say

But that's a lot of wasted breath to take

Not talking makes me fake

Cus' I know I'm gunna lose you either way

This would just give you a real reason to hate me

Maybe it's for the best

I don't need you to save me

Wishing I could find myself

Wish I could just let it out

Wish I could be someone else

Not be filled with this doubt

You say you'll be here

But I know you're lying

Cus where are you

When I'm alone crying

I don't have no more time

I'm falling far behind

If I wait for you to see

Then I'll never get to be me

Guess I'll take my chances

And I'll take all consequences

Cus as far as I'm concerned

Life's about making messes