interlude: realizations Lyrics

I don't even know how much you lied

I have no idea if you actually loved me

You never really commited did you

I was just a toy over the summer

I said maybe someday I'd like to get married

And you said "maybe," and I understood

I mean, it's tough, we're young

And that doesn't even matter yet

I said I'd frame a picture of you

You said it was sweet but not to do

Anything too permanent

I guess in case we break up and I hate you

Well we broke up and I do hate you um

And I regret you but I don't regret anything else

I would've memorialized anyone in my heart

Even if it turned sour and I chose you

And you shattered the shelters I provided you

And immortalized your own lack of sobriety

You didn't like that I was okay with being hurt when we broke up

Because you cheated me out of a real love

All while having the time of your life away from me

And claiming you were drowning

But you were drowning me

You knew I'd realize

The illusion would break the mirror

And a third would be standing in the frame

You and someone else

You turned towards them as I became

Disallusioned with the idea of us

But you beat me to it

I had eyes for someone unattainable

And you had eyes for me

And I gave you a shot

I poured love into you

And you got bored

And poured love into someone else

And my eyes turned back to unattainable

In a more hopeless dark than before

But realize now I was just a toy to you

Your parents never believed you

And I didn't want to be them

But maybe they were right

I bid you goodbye and good riddance

And so do our friends

Cause they're not yours anymore