Figures Lyrics

Why wasn't you in my life

To teach me how to treat women, maybe my relationships would go right

Maybe I'd go outside, talk to new people, stead of just write

Maybe I wouldn't thought of all those ideas on that one 

(night)

But no I don't blame 

And no I don't feel any shame

Well maybe a little when niggas would joke bout it, like issa game

Or when I was driving through lanes

At three morning just screaming to let out the pain

Or hoping the car would just bang on the side of the tree

So that someone would cry out my name

In hindsight that shit was lame, but fuck it

Stepdad came in my life, man that's the shit I always wanted

And everything happens for a reason, that's why I still love him

But if I said I didn't hate back when I was 12, nigga I'd be frontin

Especially at age13, when he threw out my momma luggage

And that's when I learned to appreciate everything until the second it's over

First time in my life I saw my momma cry in front of me until I got a lil older

I could tell she wasn't doin well

But just for me she worked on keeping up her composure

That's why I would keep it in, didn't cry for 6 years, till last October

I got all these damn figures but a father figure

I got all these dam figures round me

Got my lip around the blunt and fingers round the liquor

Wanna feel just like I'm fucking drowning 

I got all these damn figures but a father figure

I got all these dam figures round me

I been praying to the trigger take my life lil nigga

But my finger wouldn't take it from me

Early 2010's riding in my uncle whip in the summer

Don't remember shit too will, if he had a jeep or hummer

Cousin Xave to my left side, he was really like an older brother

Even though the nigga younger, we was like dumb and dumber

Talking bout shit that ain't even matter

Felt they love when they talked, only time I didn't feel like a bastard 

Had to piss the whole damn trip, uncle said you better hold your blatter

Hour later we was out the whip, preying for a bathroom like a pastor

Day later hit the ocean

Me and Xave, we was joking

Said the hardest nigga finna swim the farthest nigga, that's the notion

So we swam past the barrier, 

People spotted us and told my uncle there cause for commotion 

Headed back to the sand, but

5 minutes later I wasn't making a single ounce of a motion

Had me screaming like a bitch nigga, 

Flailing while my head under water, got me feeling like a quotient 

Remember that shit vaguely

Uncle Calvin swam in the tides to bring me back to safety

I'll remember till I'm eighty, 

Ten years later wish coulda saved him, like he saved me

I been thinking bout it lately

If I checked in he would tell me bout it maybe

Member this moment daily

Will never let another figure in my life pass gravely

I got all these damn figures but a father figure

I got all these dam figures round me

Got my lip around the blunt and fingers round the liquor

Wanna feel just like I'm fucking drowning 

I got all these damn figures but a father figure

I got all these dam figures round me

I been praying to the trigger take my life lil nigga

But my finger wouldn't take it from me