What is California? Lyrics

Let's rearrange and disengage

and learn distractions

to feel okay

in my head

in my heart

i am falling apart

my friends

and family

know i’m hanging on by a string

i can’t face it

all this love is fading

now i'm becoming

a cliche

hanging on

holding on

to what is not there

hoping for something better to reappear

why are we doing this

oh it’s insincere

my heads in California now

why are my thoughts so fucking loud?

how the hell do i find a way out?

i'm just another face in a crowd

that no one even knows about

hoping i will make it through

the come down

i give and i give

and i take and i take

and i do anything

to stay awake

i leave and then i say

things i don’t

ever really mean

and i have

too much fun

winning this game of hide and seek

but it’s what i have and what i don’t

it’s who i call when i say won’t

i'm still

hanging on holding on to what is not there

hoping for something better to reappear

not to sound sad but i just want to

disappear

my heads in California now

why are my thoughts so fucking loud?

how the hell do i find a way out?

i'm just another face in a crowd

that no one even knows about

hoping i will make it through

the come down

i'm grasping

i'm reaching

hanging onto a greater feeling

i'm crying

i'm screaming

to keep me breathing

i'm grasping

i'm reaching

hanging onto a greater feeling

i'm crying

i'm screaming

i’m in California now

and my thoughts are too

fucking loud

but i don’t wanna drown them all out

cause when nobody’s around

and i don’t recognize myself

it’s all i got to be found