screen burn Lyrics

Feared I had nothing to say

So i stayed silent

Anxiety rose from its slumber

Chose straight violence

A chorus of doubts

Cause my brain to go numb

Self esteem - none

Responsibilities -run

Being cocky- fun

Getting nothing - done

Voices ring through me - like a mantra

Thoughts in my head - throwing tantrums

Anxiety switch on and off - going random

Voices ring through me - I don't understand them

Tried to drown them out with drinks and met a rapid demise

Drunk me got the same old doubts just with a happy disguise

Could be the happiest guy if it wasn't for the way my minds wired

Wits been asleep for a while but somehow my mind's tired

Tried to change my minds tires but I'm tired of change

And keeping up with trends is more work - than simply being quiet and lame

"I can't say I really care what becomes of my ego

I'm done with that. I'm thinking of my doubts

Which all this fickle flexing has rather exposed."

Feel like I gotta give up being smart just to be cool

Give up being objective to be right

Give up being respected to be nice

Give up being myself to be liked

Ain't this teen life a delight?

Shots of dopamine when the screen lights

Give the whole weight of your soul to the gram and in return

Get habits of panic and manic craving for strangers' validation engraved in your brain

Screen burn

Can't tell a home from a telephone

Tell a phone from a shrink

Can't take the wrinkles out my soul with irons I no longer meddle with

Fail to fix the feud with my fears I just can't settle it

Seem to only have myself in order when they make a mess out of me

Why do I need the worst of my days to be the best I can be

This can't be the way I go out 'cos for sure I won't be resting in peace

Self esteem dressed and impeached

Deposed by my woes for fear's presidency

Looking for a sense of pride I could hoist in decorum

Want to quiet down the choir what if I am just voice in the chorus

Eyes of conscience blinded shit got no more to utter, son

Found it in my spirit that I lost my mind closed the shutters son

The void ain't got a barrier that I won't leap over

The conductor cut a leaf off my four leaf clover