This Ember Lyrics

A first breath

Inhaled

Followed by curious eyes

Open wide

Pupils dilated

Under artificial lights

I barely had time to meet your gaze

Our sighs of relief were cruelly cut short

By cries of anguish and pain

And in the turmoil she got pulled away

As you and me were left behind

With barely a light

This scene is suspended in time

You serenely asleep while my world

Spiraled ever downwards

I Lost count

Of how many nights

I've kept returning

To that

Haunted room

My disassociation became

Fulfilled

As minutes bled into hours

Of horror of

What might've

I pray that you will never learn

Just how dark those December nights were

Within walls so austere and cold

Cursing my own vanity,

Over and over again

For choosing to put you

On this wretched earth

Time offered clarity

Opened wounds slowly sealed with milk and honey

And seeing you bask in the warmth of the world

As you grow

For now

I'll just

Dream of

Being

Enough

For now

I will be enough