new age Lyrics
- Genre:Hip Hop & Rap
- Year of Release:2023
Lyrics
Live a life of regret
Heart pains in my chest
I hope i pull the trigger
I accept nothing less
My mind is a mess
To the rest i confess
To the future generation
Please don't become obsessed
You live a life of corruption
Man you gotta be stressed
Please don't suppress
All the feelings ingest
If you hold them down to long
They might come to protest
Theres another person in me
Man i'm feeling possessed
I dream to be dead
To blow off my head
Spit dye black and blonde
All matted in red
Wrists cut up to shreds
Thighs covered in threads
I see my future ahead
I'm shot on my bed
Anytime i tend to think about it
I refuse it instead
And i make up an excuse
Man i'm living in dread
Lived a life of abuse
I ain't talking no booze
I'm talking narcissistic father
With a hand like zeus
Motherfucker made a child consider a noose
And if he found out he was gay
There would be more than a bruise
Held my mama while she cried
When they got into a fight
Found pictures on his phone
Of his future next wife
I looked him in his eyes
And said tonight is the night
My mom packed her shit
And booked her next flight
But i'm still here getting tortured by mike
He grab me by my neck
And said "i'm in the right"
Don't you ever ever
Say you've been through this abuse
I would walk through every single hell
To get away from his use
It's an understatement to say i am mentally ill
Because of that man i learned a little skill
Went numb
Went dumb
And i never said a word
Never had any friends
That i didn't eventually hurt
Went mute
Felt tune
And i hid my emotions
6 Years later
Everything is exploding
6 Years later and i'm sitting on my bed
Gun in my mouth
I can really taste the lead
My finger grazed the trigger
And put a hole in my head
Brain scatters
Blood matter
And my lungs try gasping
Is this the end
Is this really fucking happening?
Black black
The void
An abyss
Existential darkness
Is my ignorant bliss
Complete solid solitude
All to myself
Everything is quiet for once in this hell.