God Lyrics

I've bitten my tongue so many times

It's hard to believe I still have one

Only to taste the bitter words I swallow

And the shame that I wear and the weight that it bares

I fucking know that it came from your wardrobe

First came judgement, then anger

Then came the laying on of hands

Queue the fear conditioning

God hates me anyway

He spit at me and said

"Your power challenges me

I must send you where your soul will go to die

"What have I done?" He screamed when he created me

"this thing will kill me one day

So I must surround her with pain and hate

In hopes she'll never ascend higher than me

The years that I served you were hell

My true self underneath was screaming

And just like you

I punished her for existing

I force fed her each Sunday

Every sacrament each taste

Of your body your blood

And believed I would be saved

At the last day

I saw how fast you turned your back

When my faith began to shake

You sent your hungriest demons

But I saw myself in their eyes

And I realized I was living a lie

This was not meant to be

And that god is me

Fuck