The Wrestler/Note to Self Lyrics

"Wherever you are, it's like real wrestling action"

I got my love for wrestling through my dad

I liked the shit from round my time, he liked the old shit instead

We used to watch the DVDs and talk on Cena and Edge

I remember when I told him that my dream was to wrestle

Funny how that became my dream but let a classmate straight bully me

He'd slap me in my head and I was scared to do anything

Back in 4th grade, confrontation put fear in me

Too scared to tell the teacher out of fear of him hearing me

So I'm thinking like , "How do I tell my pops about him"?

Cause I remember dad had beat my ass cause I was a wimp

And I ain't know if I tried telling him, he'd go off and trip

So I just sit in ponder on it while I hush up my lips

Thinking to myself, I'm weak and I won't ever be the strongest

I can't even stop a bully but want beef with Randy Orton?

I'm like what the hell to do man should I fight or should I forfeit?

I ain't never had a bully , and my first was Tyler

Me and daddy watching our wrestling one weekday evening

I'm fighting back these hopeless expressions like he won't see me

He looked right over at me, proceed to turn down the tv

Asked me son what's on your mind, like tell me what you thinking

Well Dad, there's a kid in this class and he picks on me

He take like every single chance that he got to just rip on me

He like to slap my head and clown on my shoes and clown on my tees

As I explain my grievances, tears would roll down my cheek

My father wiped my eyes and he lifted up high my chin

Somehow I felt some comfort but his energy was grim

He told me, "Son the next time that boy he picking on you again

You bet not hesitate just beat the fuck out of him"

You beat him til the teacher try pulling you off that boy

You prove to him and all who is really the soft ass boy

He might've won them battles but my son gone win the war

Never not defend yourself when trouble comes aboard

I thought bout what he said to me and gave me what I needed

How the very next day Tyler come picks on me, he's defeated

Oh it's funny how I thought I had finally raised the stakes

Cause soon as Tyler came around and slapped me, boy I flaked

He walked right off and laughed with the his homies, while I do math in my own head

Observing all of the outcomes if I put him in a coma

If I drag this lil nigga all up and down through this hallway

If I do wrestling moves that I learned from watching on Mondays

I had my fist balled up, I'm thinking I'm finna buck

I yell his name, he turned around, and staring at me like "What?"

I stare back at him, but I'm nervous , overthinking I'm stuck

Just my luck, I lose my confidence, he walked off like "tuh"

I can't believe it, man I turned around and cried

Went to the bathroom and I wiped my puffy eyes

What I'm gonna tell my dad, I let that nigga slide?

Words cannot express just how I really feel inside

Never gone be a man, never gone be a wrestler

Never have friends, I'm never gone be accepted

Never gone get that girl I always see at breakfast

If I tell my dad, really don't know what to expect

My daddy took me to the gym with him; he working on his legs again

I'm thinking how to tell him how I failed him acting feminine

But instead of being truthful, I lied and started impressing him

I told him how I beat Tyler's ass and he won't start mess again

That was the proudest I have ever seen my dad

And he brought that up a lot throughout the years , boy, he would brag

About how that day was the day his son had then become a man

While I bury what really happened and watch Cena vs Edge

"It's like real wrestling action"

I see two of us when push comes to shove

Will I do this for us? Will you do this for us?

I see two of us when push comes to shove

Will I do this for us? Will you do this for us?

(I need you forever, I see two)

Rather not do this without you, I'd (I can't, I can't)

Rather not do this without you, I'd (I can't, I can't)

Rather not do this without you, I'd (I can't)

Rather not do this without you, I'd

Rather not do this without you, I'd

King's cry, kings cry