Black Sheep Lyrics

I woke out of sleep

Couldn't find me no peace

Looking for shepherd

Imma lost black sheep

Moisture from eyes

They leak on my sheets

Not feeling so cool

I am feeling the heat

Pick up my pen

And I write to the beat

How I fight fear

Devil bothering me

Relationship wit nigga is complicated

I wonder if they laugh at me

When I say it

Another black boy

Not knowing his history

Power behind that word

All of its misery

The race we enslaved

They relish the slur

Buy their own chains

On it they splurge

Get myself together

On verge of collapse

Should I indulge in vices

And suffer relapse

Didn't you know

There's a war on the blacks

From cops and each other

True stranger danger

It's often your brother

Smile in your face

Stick a knife in your jugular

My people lost lives trynna vote and gain freedoms

Seems I don't care

Opportunity squandered

Lunacy I swear

Now unto my father

He wasn't in life

So that love I don't miss it

Wonder if he was

Would things have been different

Wasn't in sports

Can I blame him for that

We need to have sit down

And get all the facts

Don't really know him

I know we alike

Hard working energetic

On the move

Couldn't stay still

I am mirror his image

Can't really see it

But hairline receded

Enough about that

Onto the next topic

Pray people in my life to me they ain't toxic

Just wanna rap

Not sell my soul for profits

Bullseye on back

Since birth I've been a target

Found relief in God's word

It's been cathartic

I'm awake now

No time to be lethargic

Wanna be just right

Like Baby Bear porridge

Monkey on back

So I put him to work

Wit time scars heal

But the memories hurt

Starts off real small

Real gentle at first

Then over the course

It gets gradually worse

Should know the way

I was raised up in church

But I went astray

Stole from momma purse

Used to buy ramen soup

Boatload of Wrigley's

Not thinking bout karma

Big man I'm in Big Leagues

Always had good heart

Maneuvered real shifty

But Gods shown mercy to me

So undeservant

Wylin' on streets

Stealing lying I'm cursin'

Do what I want

To some I've been a burden

I'd like to make amends to those I have wronged

Made their days nights

And their nights even longer

Hope you see the man

Don't see me as monster

This year has been rough on me

Did you take notice

Bombed out depleted

Keep goals in focus

My grass that was green

It was eaten by locusts

Bared a lot on my own

Weight on my shoulders

Felt death was certain

In sky I saw vultures

Circlin' overhead

Swoop for a taste

How dare you try do good

And get your life straight

Not supposed to be here

Man youse a mistake

Righting the wrongs you've done

It is too late

Please do not argue

Just accept your fate

Why I rap on wax

Wit words so poetic

God has been good to me

Cannot forget it

Paid for my sins to him

I am indebted

This is my message to those who conspire

Imma conqueror

And yea a survivor

I will never stop

Perpetual motion

All this from my brain

I'm flame

I'm J Cowan

Quick to say a racist joke about yourself

How sad

Then get mad if they take you for a joke

How sad