i find it hard to cry but it's a one take Lyrics

Holding on is harder than it's made out to be

I find it easier to let it all go

Is this all a dream?

It's a nightmare it seems

All I can say is it's a funny feeling

I find it hard to cry

Unless I'm drinking

I don't know why

And I feel guilty

That I'm not crying

But I miss you

And I hope you're alright

Nan was crying as she was trying to sleep

I could hear her in her room

Wasn't sure what to do

I never wanted her to lose anyone

Now I'm scared of losing her too

I wish she could talk to me

About all the pain

I wanna help her feel okay

But what could I even say?

I find it hard to cry

Unless I'm drinking

I don't know why

And I feel guilty

That I'm not crying

But I miss you

And I hope you're alright

It's not fair

'Cause I care

Can anyone see it?

I try my best to show it

But the tears are never rolling anymore

I find it hard to cry

Unless I'm drinking

I don't know why

And I feel guilty

That I'm not crying

But I love you

And I hope you're alright