every ounce of energy. Lyrics

I haven't slept

For twenty-four hours

And I won't sleep

For twenty-four more

I can't eat

I can't even shower

I can't seem

To get up from the floor

Just how long

Do you think I can stay here?

Just how long

Do you think I can lie?

I'll smile and wave

And say that I'm safe here

But sooner or later

I know that here is where I'll die

Stuck inside my own mind

I haven't wept

Since I don't even know when

I haven't smiled

Sincere in a while

I haven't meant

A word that I've spoken

I'm not heaven-sent

I'm evil and vile

I haven't cried

And I don't know why

There's plenty to cry about

I'm stuck at a roundabout

Give me reason to even keep up my breathing

I'm feeling hopeless and worthless

Becoming numb so it hurts less

Oh please, just give me a reason

to make it to the next season

I feel compressed, undynamic

Just verging on manic

It's taking every ounce of energy to not panic

I haven't cried

And I don't know why

There's plenty to cry about

I'm stuck at a roundabout

I've bargained and lied

And forsaken my pride

And now, the noose is tied

I'm losing my will to fight

But perhaps these winds

Could wash out my sins

And give me something to smile about

Like a child on a merry-go-round

Substituting a smile for a frown

And maybe, in time

I'll consolidate my mind

And see there's plenty of joy to find

The truth that's beneath the lie

That one day

I truly will be fine