pit. Lyrics

I can feel it coming

Like a void inside my stomach

Am I watching or performing?

And will you heed my warning

When I tell you that I have been here before

Before

I can feel it flowing

Through my veins and through my blood

I can feel the hatred growing

Like a nearing crimson flood

Oh, I feel as if my conscience is drugged

Is drugged

I feel sick

I thought that I'd already filled this pit

I feel sick

And I don't know how much longer I'll hide it

Just how many times can I toe the line?

Does everything look fine?

Am I gonna meet the deadline?

Read between the lines

Can you see the signs?

Did you hear it from me, or was it through the grapevine?

Tell me what I see

Tell me what I fear

Tell me what I wanna hear

Tell me when my death will draw near

Play me like a fool until you disappear

Making me believe that all I do is insincere

Everything I see

Everywhere I go

Like you're looking at me through a one-way window

Sing a different song

Play a different note

You're a hidden disease, without an antidote

I'll wear a thin disguise

And tell the usual lies

Hit 'em right between the eyes

And blame my mistakes on hindsight

Begin to believe in my own bullshit

Until one day, I admit

I feel sick

I thought that I'd already filled this pit

I feel sick

And I don't know how much longer I'll hide it

I feel sick

I thought that I'd already filled this pit

I feel sick

And I don't know how much longer I'll hide it

My mind is slowly numbing

To the pain, I am succumbing

Am I something? Am I nothing?

Is it hatred? Is it loving?

I can feel the anger coming, it's a silence in my chest

But the cancer keeps on growing

Pretending it knows what's best

I can feel it slowly seeping, a parasite in the mind

Everything I see before me

Everything I've left behind

It comes while I'm sleeping and then it festers when I wake

Before it finally explodes, manifesting as heartache

Please just tell me something that can put my soul to rest

Every emotion I have is one that I chose to repress

'Cos the only thing scarier than the thought I'm alone

Is the idea of taking that step into the unknown

It's safety in solitude

Stay by myself

Don't give them the attitude

Don't let them help

'Cos it's way easier to lie and say that you're doing fine

Instead of opening up and giving your friends a through line

I can feel it coming

Please don't make me open up

Yeah, I promise that we're better off

Just leaving this one shut

All this hatred stems from a place of love

Of love

So please don't take this personally

And please don't think me vile

But it's so much less disturbing

Just to grit your teeth and smile

So I think that I will say here a while

A while

A while