Finding Myself Lyrics

Many college students

Have gone to college and gotten hooked on drugs,

Marijuana, and alcohol

Listen

Don't try to be someone else

Be yourself and know that that's good enough

Tell me your not use to this

Our love is not used for this

(Shit like what's even going on)

Lately I give into what you want

I know I said your what I want

(Like maybe I don't even know what I want anymore like I don't know)

Maybe I spoke a little too soon

Head above water

I'd find a way to drown inside of an empty pool

Friends around it feels like an empty room

I reached out like too many times

Gave options but I crossed so many lines

I'm hard to handled that's your favorite line

(I'm not even here for the bullshit today)

You don't even known me girl

I barely even know myself

Nobody's perfect

Well I can't tell

Putting on a mask it's hard to sell

You saying things that you don't mean

If only

You come around and just

Show me

You come around and just

Show me

So I had given up

Soul searching

Bridge burning

Type of nigga

Who's still hurting

Still falling

I'm still learning

Can't sleep I'm still turning

Yeah

Finding myself

Is hard to do

But ask yourself

Is it hard for you

Is it hard for you

Don't try to be someone else

Don't try to be like someone else, don't try to act like someone else

Be yourself, be secure with yourself

Rely and trust upon your own decisions

Yeah

Here lies all of my I trust

I guess I can't do nothing right is why I had struggled with love

Thank god I made it to twenty

And, that's all praise to above

Could still be giving out niggas thirty point games

While I play on a crutch

(See Maybe that's my problem I be talking too much shit man)

Maybe I'm too cocky

A tad bit standoffish

Never really in the mix

Dodging all of the friends

That come with this shit

I came to college to make a change for myself but, it feels

More so like it's just for my family

Niggas don't understand me man

So I had given up

Soul searching

Bridge burning

Type of nigga

Who's still hurting

Still falling

I'm still learning

Can't sleep I'm still turning

Yeah

Finding myself

Is hard to do

But ask yourself

Is it hard for you

So I had given up

Soul searching

Bridge burning

Type of nigga

Who's still hurting

Still falling

I'm still learning

Can't sleep I'm still turning

Finding myself

Is hard to do

But ask yourself

Is it hard for you

So I had given up

Soul searching

Bridge burning

Type of nigga

Who's still hurting

Still falling

I'm still learning

Can't sleep I'm still turning

Finding myself

Is hard to do

But ask yourself

Is it hard for you

Look

Jay

Yeah

So I been stuck in the house (okay)

Just avoiding the shit

Gossip and rumors

I don't even party

Been focused on music (yeah, what)

No time for my feelings so I'm telling them sorry

So I'm Close to the edge, (like what)

Just try not to lose it

No time to slow down

Well lately I proved it (yeah)

I'm finding myself (yeah)

But who's checkin for me (yeah)

Hopes to find love

Studio is filled with confessions from me (what)

It's hard to believe but, I'm letting them see

My parents had flaws so their following me

But some of that shit I can't blame on my genes

Stood all alone I needed no team

It's hard to let go of the image you seen

But I promise I changed

I Came along way from being fifteen

Emotions and mental been gone

My house ain't a home unless you coming along

I know it don't work but it can't all be wrong

Blood sweat and tears in all of my songs

So fuck it you know that I'm

Hating this shit (okay)

I Strive to be great (hey)

Gave her my love but, it's taking a minute

Hard on myself

Tell me someone who isn't

Scared to just fall

Making me scared of losing and living

(What did you do?)

Tryna' just ball I'm focused on winning

A lack of my time it cannot be given

Don't answer no calls unless money is mentioned

Perfection in reach I don't aim to be second (yeah, yeah)

A lot on my mind so I'm constantly stressing

Reach out my hands it hurts how I'm stretching

Eyes on the crown the top is my prize

You speak on my city then I'm known as the best (the best)

Coming in first I don't care about your five

Them niggas not me they can follow in line

Top stars is next y'all can gather behind

Running up laps not wasting my time

Showing my love can't fake on the guys

I stay on my hustle, I stay on my grind

It's finally time

You know

Perfection is something that I struggle with

But, like who in this world do you know that's been perfect like

If your hearing this now I think I know who I wanna be

I wanna be

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