AGAIN. ft. Ezekiel Jabez Lyrics

The world's bemuse

My wretched form

I feel its disease creeping into my veins again and again

I stall for time, I gasp for air, like this field of reeds

I'm turned to dust in blistering heat

Am I a reflection of my old scars?

I fall to pieces reminded of better times when I

Didn't hold this anguish down into my inner world

I'm treading water, I'm suffocating

Drowning in my own designs again and again

And again and again

Now the trials of men

Contributions to my psychosis in feverish dreams

This concession humbles me so

I cannot face these demands with my own bones

I feel I might break under the pressure again and again

I fall to pieces reminded of better times when I

Didn't hold this anguish down into my inner world

I'm treading water, I'm suffocating

Drowning in my own designs again and again

And again and again

Black out, night time

My nigga run them dimes

Every time I'm feeling inclined

To run up them checks I'm feeling depressed

You niggas be talking

I ain't hearing shit

I'm steadily walking into the abyss

I want mo', want hoes

Want doe want droe

Want time can't find

My mind in time to fight the pain

Disdain still rains present

All I really want is heaven

Inside my my mental

Peace between pencil and paper

Words that don't reek of hatred

To be stable in status

To be able to face this

Internal conflict

But I cant stop it

Cause I can't process the thoughts that haunt me

The constant taunting

Is gonna cost me

What I'm not willing to loose

The power to be able to

Wade through the waters of truth

Where everything's what I knew

But no longer is

Its all just fodder

The words of a goner

The man of the shadows

Falls into the meadows

Forever gone you niggas remember

Remember your strength

Comes from the inner desire to do better

break cycles and change the status quo

Bros losing their appetite for destruction, systematic suffering is dysfunction, all for profit?

Nah

Evil only thrives in the insecurities of weaker men

Feeble beings believe they've lost and are seeking pain

It's me I'm a weaker man, its me I've got a better plan

It's me I'm a testament to tenacity, all

The struggles find me and i find myself like a masochist

Am I lying to myself?

These highs never last long

The feeling returns always am I not strong?

Enough to keep my demons from keeping the best of me

Gone are the times for a lighter dream

Far from the presence of a brighter scene

Call upon thee when you're mind is fighting the inanities.

Fuck around and smite your vanity

Sing the sounds of perfect melodies

Bring the clouds from the skies are you

Actually there?

Part the seas this time are you actually there?

Rise again and preach divine are you actually there?

Deliver us from our own cries are you actually there?

Are you actually there

Are you actually

Gone away from this one day I pray I'll be

My heart in my hands my head resides

The barriers of space and time collapse inside

I feel I may see the sun again

I fall to pieces reminded of better times when I

Didn't hold this anguish down into my inner world

I'm treading water, I'm suffocating

Drowning in my own designs again and again

And again and again