counting my days Lyrics

I been dreaming with my actions

Yet I still take new falls

Alot of figures asking me

When I'll be making new growth

My heart be on my sleeve

So I really take most faults

It is a trigger tax

But im paying with what I have

Yknow I been balls in

Every motion im

Surfing like most

They never relate

So im always drowning in

A place so cold

Told my family to wait

Cause some things they dont know

And told my girl to take her time

Hope she dont take too long

I know im patient

But this patience

Still tryna heal though

Like faith is

What I'm pacing

Every step real slow

But I gotta feel right

Never asking

For some answers

Im just hoping they on my page

Like he/she knows

I need the balance

With nothing on my mind

Like god be my witness

I don't feel like nothing missing

Everythings in place

I have everything I'd ever needed

I'm so far ahead with all my dreams and my ambitions

But lately I let the bad part always get to me

Like

I dont know what I'd do when

You aint around no more

It doesnt get much better

When I am here all alone

Can never relay

My feelings to you

Im trying my hardest

Im feeling so lost when

Theres nothing around

Counting my days

I know some things that I gotta change

Too connected to my thoughts

Feeling everything I dont want

Scared of whatever I might hit

When I'm really tryna figure it all out

I'm loving the people that I love

But it might be too much for their minds

But I never wanna change myself again

To somebody that they'd like

How am I posed to talk right

If im thinking bout how they feel

Hoping that they being honest

Cant handle another stage that aint real

I been acting for too long

But I know I do better these days

Please don't give up me

I wont listen to whatever

He/she says

I could only hope that they never might leave

Take my soul, if that is something that they might need

Hold me closer than ever, let me know that you right here

Im alotta work, I promise im worth more than things might seem