Bloodshot Lyrics

Looked in the mirror seen a reflection

But it wasn't me

Eyes bloodshot

Sneaking tears so no one could see

Another foundation

To cover the fresh black and blue

Scratches on my skin

Hoping the swelling goes down soon

A bite mark that won't go away

A headache I can't seem to shake

Tired of seeing fists

I'm on the wrong side of a sunny day

Hands up to protect my face

Apologies just wanting grace

Isolate me, isolate me

She was grooming me to be her prey

Everyday Im healing cause

The pain she's caused had seemed to stay

I was lying to myself that this was love

When it was something else

That's the kind of love most people don't speak about

Yea that's that kind of love I tried to fix

If we could speak it out

Instead it was toxic triggered trauma

When she'd beat me down

Had to overcome a fuckin monster

So I could see me now

I lost friends

I lost me

Love was killing me softly

Hardly ever recognized

To my inner child I apologize

She asked me what would make me leave

I asked myself what made me stay

Her abandonment and abuse

Made manipulation her favorite way

To keep me around

I had to find a way to break away

Cause this crying in the mirror

Hiding horrors

Ain't worth saving face

I never deserved it

No one ever does

You came this close to taking me

Like this close to shaking me

And I'm turning my pain into pleasure

Start paying me

I am turning my pain into pleasure

So start paying me

Everything you done to me

I've already done

Word to Celie

Heart is beating

Close your eyes and then you'll see me

I am the haunting of your grieving

I am your nightmares

I am the haunting of your grieving

I am your nightmares

The cycle's broken

No words unspoken

We healing now

I unlocked a new side of me

And then I popped out

You see me now

I'm in my baddie zone

All the haters they need to watch out

Removing all the knees to the necks

Cause i'm on top now

Ancestors cover me

Bitch bye bye

Ain't no turning back

Im finally

Making room for things

That inspire me

Quite honestly

This femme's fires ignited

I'm here to show up

Cuz they gaslit the fuck out of me

Now watch me blow up