Close to Forever Lyrics

I hate every day, every smile, every friendly wave

I hate my thoughts

I hate your fun

I've hated everything I've done

I hate being kind

I hate being good

I hate my whole neighborhood

I hate the love that I still feel

I'm growing tired of this ordeal

Still debating

So frustrating

Live in limbo

I'm gonna do that

Dull my senses

Panic sets in

Feigned attraction

No reaction

Endless worry

Untrustworthy

Makes my head spin

Stomach's upside down

Don't know what's to come

I hate the fight to fall asleep, waking up, remembering everything

I hate going out and shaking hands

I hope I get abducted by aliens

Always nervous

Doubts resurface

Where's the window?

I've gotta get out

Dull my senses

Panic sets in

Feigned attraction

No reaction

Endless worry

Untrustworthy

Makes me give in

Our world inside out

Don't forget it all

When it all comes crashing down

And my head hits the ground

I have nightmares every night

See you in a different light

Forever in my dreams with you next to me

All fades to black

Are you coming back?

Sip your spirit slow

Wait and see if you come home

Are you miserable like me?

Are you happy to be free?

How could you?

We were so close to-