Behind my smile Lyrics

I'm grieving , freezing

I don't want to wake up Because I be dreaming

Doesn't matter in the end they All leaving

And I've never been good I'm Always healing

Laughter, all smiles, but I wish You could see what's behind my smile

I wake up in the morning and I ask myself

Is life worth living should I blast myself

Woke up dressed up and picked My mood from the shelf

Another day Trying to figure out What's wrong with my health

We enter this universe crying and cold

Who would've thought we exit The same way

Crying and cold

Sometimes knowing nothing is Our only access to freedom

And sometimes knowing Something's going to unlock all Of your demons

I take a leap of faith it doesn't Matter where I land

I've done a lot of damage with My own two hands

And I know it's hard to tell

But it's easy to see

Every version I give

Is a different side of me

But I keep my mouth shut

The way I'm told I should

And bite back my answer

When they say it's all good

Fold myself up

Let my face say it all

Denying all assumptions

Even when they're not wrong

I don't really give a f###

To keep playing these games

And I'm tired of fake people

Trying to Call out my name

I guess I'm too real for you

And it's clear we not the same

They ask me why I'm so cold hearted

Well let me tell u where it Started

Get close build trust then it all Falls down

Get close build love then it all Falls down

Backstabbed betrayed now my Heart falls down

Then the cycle repeats and it Comes back around

Now my heart freezes and it no Longer bleeds

And Now I'd rather give but Never receive

Pain is when the person you Made memories with becomes A memory

Talk about my mental health They say i do it for attention And not to mention all this chaos

Causes tension so now the only Time I speak is when I'm in the Booth

But until then I'll just smile and Hide the truth yeah

Behind my smile there's a lot of Pain but I hide it

A lot of darkness when the sun Shines it hides it

If only you can feel my pain

If only you can feel my pain

I'm grieving freezing

I don't want to wake up Because I be dreaming

Doesn't matter in the end they All leaving

And I've never been good I'm Always healing

Laughter, all smiles, but I wish You could see what's behind my smile

Yeah I wish you could see what's behind my smile