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I'm laying on my bedroom floor

Left alone with all my thoughts

I don't know if I can do this

After all

I look at old photos and I wonder what she'd think

Cause the little girl that's in there she's nothing like me

And I don't recognize myself

Anymore

And the birthdays I would wait for

Are now the ones I dread

I used to wish that I was older

But now I wish I could stop time instead

I'll never play mermaids in the pool

Or learn to ride a bike again

Or walk up to someone new and in seconds have a best friend

No more recess

No more playing games

Not really thinking about anything

No more princesses or fairytales

The curtains they finally fell

They yelled cut

Then suddenly

I'm forced to face some twisted reality

It's all been hitting me since I turned 18

And soon I'll be 20

I didn't think growing up would be this hard

It's crazy how life can catch you off guard

I guess this is what it is

After all

They took down our pictures

The girls I once considered my sisters

I'll never know why

Go figure

I'll never walk those hallways

Or make careless decisions again

I guess at some point everything has to come to an end

No more window shopping

Making plans

Inside jokes only we understand

I think I just heard the final bell

And the curtains they finally fell

They yelled cut

Then suddenly

I'm forced to face some twisted reality

It's all been hitting me since I turned 18

And soon I'll be 20

And just like that I'm not the one in the school bus

I'm in the car driving behind it

Seeing kids live out the same life that I used to live

Will I feel this way when I'm 80

Can someone please explain this to me

I feel like crying

Earth sign

Brown eyes

My face has hardly changed overtime