Lost from Loss Lyrics

First loss I ever felt was fat

Ryan from the hood

Too embarrassed sneaking out of class crying when I could

I was only sixteen

Lonnie died a year later

Went from hooping at the Y to asking God why'd you take him

Then what

Two suicides the same week

Mariah and Tails

That's the moment that changed me

I was haunted by them thoughts

Can't talk can't sleep

We was only kids fighting demons

This pain deep

Hoping I ain't have the same fate

Initials on a nameplate but the chain fake

R.I.P shirts

Repping under stress

But couldn't nothing prepare me for what was coming next

Two of my close thugs murdered in cold blood

We might pull a trigger

We're not pulling a plug

I was at the hospital with Swift praying he

Pulled through

Had a dream about doc when he died

Awakened by that phone call thought the shit was a lie

He called back confirming it and I crumbled inside

Blood in my eyes seeing red want them all dead

It's been a minute but I'm dusting off these cobwebs

Paranoid because you never know

Death it's so sudden

I'm knowing they would've been ready if they seen it coming

No morals at all suckers will kill you over nothing

Look at us still hustling though

I'm lost from all the losses I done took

My dogs got caught they wasn't cautious enough

So lost from all the losses I done took

Flowers on your grave

Money on your books

Every phone call got me shook

I know it's bad when it's ringing off the hook

My heart drops

I don't even want to look

I'm traumatized from all these losses I done took

My soul lost, I'm so lost

My soul lost, I'm so lost

My soul lost, I'm so lost

From all these losses I done took

My soul lost, I'm so lost

My soul lost, I'm so lost

My soul lost, I'm so lost

From all these losses I done took

Prison took the neighborhood away from us

Tried to send some money tried to stay in touch

Budder did a bid before he graduated

But if that dude was black they wouldn't have gave a fuck

Swift was on the band in our glory days

K-9 bit him when he took them on a chase

Back then it was funny we was young and wild

But this shit hit different because y'all got kids now

My dog Billy did a nickel

Did a bid before I met him just a victim of the system

Ain't too cool to say I missed him

To my growth was instrumental

Got me moving like I know it's near

Fuck dying losing freedom is my only fear

Yet and still I'm in traffic checking every mirror

Because if they pull me over I'm facing some years

Gotdamn

I'm lost from all the losses I done took

My dogs got caught they wasn't cautious enough

So lost from all the losses I done took

Flowers on your grave

Money on your books

Every phone call got me shook

I know it's bad when it's ringing off the hook

My heart drops

I don't even want to look

I'm traumatized from all these losses I done took

My soul lost, I'm so lost

My soul lost, I'm so lost

My soul lost, I'm so lost

From all these losses I done took

My soul lost, I'm so lost

My soul lost, I'm so lost

My soul lost, I'm so lost

From all these losses I done took