last spring Lyrics

Three months later and I'm still stuck in my head

And dreams of getting up and growing out of my bed

My friends all think I'm delusional

I think they might have a point

Recordings on my phone that I never delete

And feelings on my own that I don't want to keep

I plant a pretty flower in a prison cell

I know you hate it when I pity myself

And if I could be enough

Would that give you

One reason to stay

And if time could stop itself

I'd be back in July when everything was okay

And spring can't bring me anything

That winter won't already give

I need ten more seconds to collect myself

Five more seconds to live

Maybe I'm not built for this

But I don't have a choice

Maybe there's not much to say

Screaming into the void

Was there ever a time when

All my silver linings turned into gold

And the golden years get heavier

Until the pressure lets you go

But if I could give you up

Would I have any good reason to stay

And if I could stop myself

I'd be one step past where I was in May

And the vacant rooms and empty tombs

Got more love left to give

I need ten more seconds to collect myself

No more seconds to live

It's not what I thought I'd see myself through

Why don't you stay

I guess I'll see you in May

It's not what I thought I'd see myself through

Why don't you stay

I guess I'll see you in May

In May, in May