Heaven's Gate Lyrics

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I've been stressing for so long about getting it on my own

I've been stressing about whether or not I'm going to make it home

Some days I don't even feel like picking up my phone

I've been stressing about if Imma end up dying alone

So conflicted

Who would've predicted that the nigga with no prescriptions would end up being addicted

The pressure of being in position to be commissioned

While being well in the midst of attaining the golden ticket

My superstition, leaves me well outside of the realm of recognition

My visions hit reality and tends to end in collisions

It seems I've been condemned and misery is my sentence

So I look to God and start pleading for some type of forgiveness

Life is just a movie and I'm a simple intermission

Navigating through it while living in the same position

It's crazy how I've been a victim of my own decisions

I guess I really am just my own opposition

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out and just meditate

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out and just meditate

Born to win, I sinned, did it again

Even long after I swore that I'm never giving in

I strive to survive and reach for the skies and never stop for anything 'til the ending begins

Moving fast in a delayed state of mind

Free to think what I want while my brain remains confined

And then I move on to complain that I am way too behind I mean

What else to expect when I'm just a slave by design

I need to find me

And I need to find peace

Searching for the light with the darkness right behind me

Going for so long not realizing it's inside me

At least I know it's not my fault for moving so blindly

Being humble and nearing exposure

Running towards the goal while the Devil's getting closer

Meanwhile I believe that I'm doing what I'm supposed to

All while taking the steps to start seeing some type of closure

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out and just meditate

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out and just meditate

Preaching to the gods, while I'm reaching into the skies

Seeking the end of time, while I read in between the lines

Dreaming that I rise, while clean in a suit and tie

And then you finally look up and you see me in disguise

But things will start to go up

Really think I've handled enough

I've done a lot but so what?

I'm tired of acting so tough

It's about that time to go nuts

I think I'm done growing up

Doing the lords work by making sure we all blowing up

So please, don't freeze, take heed when triggers squeeze, the need, to only try to appease when someone bleeds

It's obscene

You see how it's still okay to tease when someone is down on their knees and their struggling to breathe

I mean

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out and just meditate

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out and just meditate

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out and just meditate

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out and just meditate

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out and just meditate

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out and just meditate

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out and just meditate

I had dreams of knocking on Heaven's gate

Now I just need to chill out

Just meditate