The enemy Lyrics

Spent my life searching for love

Which led me to doing all these drugs

Just another trailer trash junkie tattooed up thug

I cried to the sky above

Told god i would quit all the drugs

But I'm a phony and a fake

The grass is greener on the other side So i slither on a snake

Burn me to ashes and end all this pain

Wish i had a dollar for every time i wanted a hole in my head

Why the fuck was I always cursed with this mind always making me want to be dead

Is this really what is gods image

It was another day and I couldn't take much more of it

Seems i sold my soul

Even though I didn't know it

Now I'm trying to fix this shit

But I am loosing the battle

Now I See

Yeah

Now I see

But how can i fight the enemy

When it turns out it's me

Just need my fix need my shit

Sweet apathy

Take this fucking pain away from me

Do this shit in cycles again for years and it never ends

But how can i fight the enemy

When it turns out it's me

Just give me my fix

Thirty milligrams until i reach my sweet apathy

No more woah is me

Numb it all away is the only way to be free

Day after day I'm waking up

I'm still tired as fuck

But in my gut i know

I'm goina do better

I'm not gonna be that fucked up little version of me i use to be

I'm done playing games

Living life everyday day in pain

Then i go and hide my face in shame

How you goina do what you keep on doing

Let it ruin everything

Fuck it I'm going do me like I should have done in the fucking first place anyways

Seems all the time was just a big waste

I never got the same shit back in the end and i can't pretend

That you ever tried to do right by me i know that I ain't easy and I'm sorry

But i never claimed to be and you still said you'd be with me

Now i see

Yeah

Now i see

But how can i fight the enemy when it turns out it's me