Afraid To Feel Lyrics

For all the people that are struggling with different mental illnesses

18 Years of my life

Living with pain and grief and strife

Living in a loveless world of old lies

While I gotta smile and say that I'm fine

While I gotta wave and say my goodbyes

While I gotta push my feelings way down

Fam just firm it, it'll be fine (Ayo Blaize, keep it up)

Please and thank you all the time

Nah I'm not thankful

For the heartache and the breakups I dealt with

I'm not thankful

That I'm fucked up but I dealt with it

Nah I'm not thankful

For the cynicism and the apathy

You're causing this tapestry of this life I'm in to get frayed

Now people always think that I'm this happy personality

As bubbly as a man can be

The nicest when I want to be

But what they do not see is all the shit that makes a man like me

I'm tired of these appearances

I'm hurt but no allowances

When will it stop?

I feel old now, I don't need this shit

I just wanna breathe and shit

Take a chill pill and not feel this shit

Can you just stop?

Just take a minute and listen to the silent sounds of the subtle screams inside of me

That cry to me saying the wanna die to me now

Did a lot of things in my past

Broke a few strings in my past

Tore a few wings in my past

And I'm not proud of it

Now I'm done with the ways of my past

Put no blame on my past

Learn from the mistakes in my past

And now I'm proud to be

Living in the world that we live in

Dealing with the people that we deal with

Ruminate on everybody's wickedness

Feel a little tickle from my feelings

But still I stay positive

This world will chew you up 'til it's sick of you

Look you up and down and probably spit at you

But you gotta bide your time and remember

That you gotta stay positive

Honestly it's not okay to hide from your feelings

And you should definitely find

That special someone to talk about all the shit that's on your mind and

If there's one thing you're gonna take away from this song it should be

Don't be afraid to feel