the curse Lyrics

I've been crying out for help, I guess that nobody can hear me

Yeah I say that I'm okay, but to be real I'm nowhere near it

Don't be fooled by my demeanor, you know looks can be deceiving

I've been struggling to find a sense of purpose

What's the meaning?

Like these thoughts used to be fleeting, now they constantly deplete me

I've been thinking about a lot, but clearly ain't been thinking clearly

I don't ever ask for much, but all I want's some inner peace

Starting to think I'll only find it when I'm 6 feet underneath

And I know that everybody's out there fighting their own demons

Just can't help but feel that mine are all particularly evil

They stalk me through my days, and make certain I never sleep

I just hope and pray one day that I'll eventually be free

But I guess that I'll just have to waste away until then

My grave, I'm digging

Been slowly drifting away

How did I end up in this position I'm in?

Yeah it's a gift, and a curse, but I wish that I could say that it was worth it in the end

Yeah it's a gift, and a curse, but I wish that I could say that it was worth it in the end

Let me just be honest for a second, let me level with ya

Life is just a game of trying not to let the devil get ya

And it's hard, oh so hard for me

How I just want to be

Fucked up

Still? Damn

You would think that I'd be good by now, as long as I've been down

Well maybe I deserve it, I'm a sinner after all

And I was cursed upon my birth to put these lyrics in these songs

Yeah it's a gift, and a curse, but I don't know if it's worth it

I just hope there's someone out there picking up what I've been putting down

And tell the reaper come and get me

I've been waiting on that motherfucker, patient, sitting pretty

But I guess that I'll just have to waste away until then

My grave, I'm digging

Been slowly drifting away

How did I end up in this position I'm in?

Yeah it's a gift, and a curse, but I wish that I could say that it was worth it in the end

Yeah it's a gift, and a curse, but I wish that I could say that it was worth it in the end